Single Life Sucks

When my wife told me about two weeks ago that she would be going away this weekend, I didn’t realize that my world as I knew it would change radically. It all started when I dropped her off at the airport on Thursday night. I never realized how lonely you could feel driving a car without a hand to hold or a reason to not turn your radio on. That night I made my way home in one of the quietest drives I’ve ever had. Once I got home, I sat in my room for hours trying to adjust to this new and unwanted situation.

See, once you get used to spending most of your time with that someone you love, you also get used to having them there for you. You no longer have to make endless calls on Friday nights trying to figure who’s free and willing to hang out with you. Or wondering what you’re gonna do for dinner because cooking for one is just an impossible task. Or how you really wanna go to that one movie but no one else seems to want to see it too and there’s no way on earth that you’re going by yourself.

Since she left I’ve eaten chips and salsa for dinner, KitKats for breakfast, watched the first and second seasons of Friday Night Lights (currently on the third one), take naps without being tired, leave work early- and I need to stop this list because if I continue, I might finally convince myself that I’m more of a loser than I think I am.

Before her, I was fine being with myself. I could just spend a whole weekend doing nothing at all or doing it all and being at peace with that. But now that I’m without her, I feel incomplete and nothing seems right (as corny as that sounds). My only consolation prize is that she’ll be back tomorrow and I won’t have to feel incomplete again (or lonely or lost or…). Tomorrow I’ll have my better half back, and I can go back to normal me; the one who actually showers and eats more than chips and salsa for dinner.

But for now, I’ll go back to watching the show (nothing like watching small town people make a big deal out of everything to feel better about yourself) while entertaining the idea of getting some donuts to feed my emotional eating cravings.

I miss you, honey.

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4 responses to “Single Life Sucks

  • Camille Funk

    I saw your blog entry and thought I’d make a comment. For the times when you are cooking for one… I have a suggestion. I just came out with a cookbook for one “Table for One: Perfectly Portioned Meals for the Single Chef” (http://www.amazon.com/Table-One-Camille-Funk/dp/1599554321/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&s=books&qid=1277925907&sr=8-1)

    Granted you’re not single… but all of the recipes are sized to fit the single serving. Even the dessert section has recipes sized down to fit one. Making only three cookies, or a mini apple-pie. Hopefully, that will make cooking for one a bit more healthy and fun! Good luck! 🙂

  • Mrs. This One

    Thank you for your comment and I’ll make sure to check out! The mini apple-pie sounds like a must try 🙂

  • Heather

    It seems impossible now, but trust me — one day, you’ll LOVE the weekends when your significant other is gone! No matter how madly in love two people are, sometimes some distance is refreshing. My husband is working super late all week and I’m BEYOND STOKED at the idea of having the house to myself, if even just from 5-9 p.m. every night. Herbal face masks, ugly PJ pants, loud 90s chick rock, 90210 re-runs… oh man, I’m getting all antsy just thinking about it! 😉

    • Mrs. This One

      Although I wish I could find this a little hard to believe, I don’t necessarily do. I hope it will get like this because that weekend by myself was a total fiasco. I think part of the problem too is that is summertime and most of my friends aren’t around- I think having someone to fall back on would have been a good thing. And as far as the “me time,” it really wasn’t that horrible 🙂

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