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Waitlisted

I got my third decision today. “Waitlisted” at We’re Not Sure We Want You University (WU). It wasn’t a rejection, but it wasn’t an acceptance. What to make of it then? My wife said: “That’s a good thing. Better than getting rejected right away!” But is it? I replied to her: “Let me explain how I feel right now. Say we’re still dating. Then you ask me to marry you. To which I say ‘Gosh, that sounds great, but I think this other girl I really like might propose soon too. So let’s wait a bit, and if that doesn’t work out, then we can revisit your proposition.'”

Should I withdraw? I’m not sure yet. I might be too emotional still to make a rational decision.

-Mrs. This One

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The Cure for Procrastination?

There’s no question about it- we all love to procrastinate. It makes sense, why read 200 pages of statistical analysis when you could pop in a movie while you enjoy some delicious popcorn?

In the past, procrastination has been a terrible problem for me. Every single time I felt overwhelmed, I’d run to my ps3 and use it like there was no tomorrow. It relaxed me, but it also kept me behind on my work.

While browsing law school forums, I found an interesting thread titled “How Do You Motivate Yourself To Work” Given my obvious procrastination problems, I clicked on it, anxious to find the results. Some of them were plain funny, like “turn off the internet” by Transferthrowaway. Some were just bizarre, like alicrimson’s: “I drive myself to fear failure and then panic and then get to work. That was first semester. Now, I fear screwing up next semester and then panic and then imagine how sad I would be if I screwed up and missed out on L. Rev grade on opp, which I never wanted to do until this semester, and then get to work.” But yet, there was one answer that struck a cord: “Reading equals grades. Grades equal money. I value money more than Youtube” by kalvano.

Although my main interest in life isn’t money, I understand Kalvano’s logic. Though I think I equate it with success instead. After all, “graduated with honors” has to mean something to employers, right? Well, his logic must be working because in the last 16 hours I’ve been more productive than in the past two weeks! Granted, I have to admit that thanks to my first offer of admission I feel happier and less stressed, so this may be a variable that could undermine what I’ve written here. But we have to agree that your priorities determine your actions, right?

Before I go back to staring at a book, I have to make a confession. Public Service Law School (PSLS) has recently become one of my top choices. I hope it has nothing to do with the fact that PSLS was “my first.” But I guess I won’t know for sure until I hear back from everywhere else.

-Mrs. This One


Last Minute Doubts

Well, all of my law school applications are in. I added about three more applications to my cycle at the last minute, and I feel really good about that decision. I will have to wait for months before any school renders a decision, and the questions in my mind become too overwhelming from time to time: What if I have to move? What about a summer job? Will I get any scholarships? Will I be in the same area as my wife? And if not, will it be worth it not to be?

To these questions, my wife will probably say that I need to wait until all of the acceptances, rejections, and waitlists are on the table. But can you blame it for thinking about it?

-Mrs. This One


Wishing I Could Stop The Time

I will not address the Steelers’ loss in this entry, but I will admit it hurts.

There is a bit of resentment lingering in the air due to tomorrow being Monday already. I’ve been trying so hard to make tomorrow be as far as possible, but I don’t think it has worked at all. I am usually excited and looking forward to new clases, but this time around, it is just a reminder of being extremely busy, and having to deal with bosses and unhappy customers. On the other hand, it will take my mind off of law school admissions for most of the days.

I have three classes tomorrow. I have homework due for two of them already. I’ve been trying to work on one of those, but all I can think about is how I want to play video games so badly. Or watch a movie. Anything but having to give myself to school again.

It makes me think that I’m going to have to really enjoy myself this summer, because once law school starts, then I’ll really understand what having no leisure time means. Sigh.

-Mrs. This One


Winter Break is Almost Gone

We’re three days away from starting the winter quarter. If I could, I’d take two more weeks to rest. But no, that ain’t gonna happen. That’s alright, I guess.

Photo Courtesy of Free-Extras.com

During the last quarter I went through a severe period of depression. The worst I’ve had if you ask me. I was doing way too much while being terribly sick. All I wanted was to rest and to not worry about anything else. But that wasn’t an option. I must say that after I got what I wanted (a break), my spirits were lifted incredibly high. I’m back to being the same dreamer I had been not long ago. So much so that I believe I’m going to get accepted into some really great schools.

In the mean time, I’ll be spending the whole weekend cleaning and trying to make this place more livable. We are also going with some friends to the UCLA vs ASU game tomorrow night, and I will definitely be watching the Steelers-Broncos game on Sunday. Not a bad weekend, huh?

-Mrs. This One


How Did You Pick Your School?

Four applications in, thirteen more to go. Usually I would cherish the fact that I at least got some applications in, but for now all I can think about is that I’m not even halfway through. It does feel a bit surreal that I applied to some schools. Like, did it really happen? Is this a dream?

Okay, enough with the blabber. One thing that I’ve gotten out of this application process is that there is one school that actually rings my bell. They have a different perspective to the whole law school thing- and the more I deal with them, the more they confirm this for me. Because of how touchy this whole process is, I will call this school Dreamy Law School (nothing to do with Grey’s Anatomy, I promise).

I would love to go there because they’re different. The faculty is filled with bada**es. People who’ve traveled and done pretty unconventional research. What’s more, the dean is committed to make sure this is a life-changing experience for the students. You know how many deans actually care about the students? Well, I’m not sure either, but I bet it ain’t many. And one last added bonus, their campus drives me crazy (in a good way). I feel so much at peace when I’m there. But not everything is reindeer and rainbows. This school will have me live away from my girl, they are not the highest-ranked school (which it will matter plenty when I’m out looking for a job), and there’s the little inconvenience that my LSAT score needs to be good enough for them to accept me.

All in all, choosing a school out of thirteen (keep in mind this number will be smaller based on which schools actually take me) will be no walk in the park. So I turn this back at you- how did you pick your school? When did you know this was THE school you wanted to go to?

-Mrs. This One


Waiting for Christmas

It should be 62 degrees outside, but in this studio, it feels like 50. While I try not to dwell on the lack of a heating device, the hammering from the construction going on in the lobby of the building causes me more distress than anything else. Is it Christmas yet?

I received my first grade of the quarter last night. An A-. Not the best, but also a little too good to be true, given the fact I went through months of homework, papers and exams, while enduring a lot of pain without being able to take my meds. I’d like to pat myself in the back, but there are three more grades pending- and I might not get so lucky the next time.

This past week came and went. It was the last one after finals, and it felt like just another week. I interned for four days, and I also got my old job back. Not thrilled about the latter, but we need money, and no one else is hiring. I’d like to say that I finally get to rest, but now it’s time to get my law school applications ready and hit “apply” about 17 times. On the bright side, I haven’t given the LSAT a second thought. Though between you and me, I think about January 6th (the day scores are released) every day.

We’ll be driving for a while tomorrow, and then we’ll spend a couple of weeks with my in-laws. I keep telling myself that I’m fine with this but for the first time, all I want is some quiet time with my girl away from everything- including family. But I know this is selfish, so I wave my desires away. Some day, I say.

I have no lists this time. No resolutions. Everything just got too tiring. We drove for a while last night to pick up a much needed paycheck (hers not mine), and I counted only 1 out of every 15 houses had Christmas lights on. It was saddening to see the spirit dying, but with this economy, I cannot blame anyone for wanting to cut some costs by letting decorations gather more dusts in a crowded basement room.

In the search of happiness I’ve realized that I like simplicity but some variety helps. For some reason watching two full football games kept my spirits up for the rest of the day. Who knew I loved football that much. Although you gotta admit that the Broncos-Bears game was a heck of a game. Except for the fact that I disagree with the newspapers. I love Tebow and all, but give Prater some credit. The man tied and won the game, and that’s the end of the story. Now I’m looking forward to the college bowl games. UCLA is playing Illinois on the 31st, and Auburn is playing Virginia later that day. If I can watch both games I’ll be golden. If I can hold my girl’s hand to receive the new year I’ll be… what’s better than golden? Double golden?

-Mrs. This One


If Dreams are Choices, and Choices are Hard…

It is Friday night, and while some may think TGIF, I’m thinking SWIFA (Say What? It’s Friday Already?). This can be both good and bad, but I will certainly let you be the judge of that. Anything I did prior to today is a blur. I am swamped with homework and studying coming at me from every which way. The Mrs. has already pointed out that I’m certainly less available. And all I thought after she said that was: wait until I’m in law school.

I’ve certainly seen my time shrink and the saddest point is that this was somewhat a choice. I emailed my BFF earlier (did I just used the term “BFF?”), and at the very end of the message pointed out that I was sure she was having more fun than me. I mean, she’s in college too, in a sports team (no, she’s not a lesbian), and working part-time. But that still does not add up to my 15 units (11 of which are honor courses), plus my legal internship, and this law school process (prepping and taking the LSAT, writing about three different personal statements, filling out 10+ different applications, asking for letters of recommendation, etc.). The crazy thing is that she chose her path and I chose mine. No one put a gun to my head and told me to go to law school (unless you count my mother. Just kidding. Kinda). I could have chosen to be a gym teacher and things would have been a lot different (no disrespect to gym teachers’ curriculum).

There are a few things I’ve learned out of all of this though:

  1. Lawyers are not just terrible* people. They are terrible people who worked extremely hard to be where they are.
  2. Dreams take some passion because without a good amount of passion, I would have given up my dreams already.
  3. Don’t marry someone who is not ready to go through everything you- and I mean everything.
  4. Blogging while you’re too busy is not necessarily impossible. Blogging without mentioning the LSAT at least once, when you’re about to take it, is definitely impossible.

-Mrs. This One

*Based on the silly stereotype that all lawyers are money-hungry, and heartless beings. A view I do not share; at least not always. 


Your Generation Screwed My Generation

When we tell our older relatives that we are stressed out about an upcoming test, their reaction is overwhelmingly similar; they’d say something along the lines of: “Do the best you can.” I really don’t believe they quite understand how things have changed since they were in college. If the best we can do is a B, that will literally take us nowhere. The bar has been raised so high up, that it’s getting harder and harder to see.

Consequently, our generation is built on competition. The higher the number attached to your name, the better chances to succeed you have. I could be a decent student and have a 3.4 GPA*, but that’d just mean that anyone whose GPA is above 3.4 has better chances than me to get into a good graduate program, or a top-tier law school. In fact, some graduate schools will not even consider your application if you don’t have a 3.5 or above. Basically, every mistake we make can hurt us in a world in which to be the best, you have to be absolutely flawless. Thanks to this, college went from being the place where you tried different things to figure out who you were and who you wanted to be, to being the place where you played it safe and conformed to what would give you the best score you could get.

But what does this say about the generational gap? I’ll bet half of the people sitting in any admissions table in a top university never had more than a 3.2 GPA. But then, how did they get to raise the bar for us, who have yet to influence the way the world works now? I’d say some bad decisions were made and we’re stuck with less jobs, more problems, and cleaning up someone else’s mess. I’ve always heard the 80’s and 90’s were a lot fun- Well, I don’t doubt it.

-MTO

*Not my actual GPA. Thankfully. 

 


Summer Love

American Graffiti is on, I’m drinking coffee, and I’m craving a burger- you can blame that last one on American’s Graffiti’s publicity of Mel’s Drive-In. School’s load is increasing by the minute, but I’m finally loving it. So much that I’m trying hard not to think and dread the minute this love goes away.

There are a few reasons why I’ve started to love summer:

First, I’m taking a class with my favorite professor. He’s such a geek about politics that he makes me a geek about politics. Even today when he warned us that today’s lecture, about the Constitution, wouldn’t be as interesting as the past ones, I smiled to myself because I actually love the Constitution.

Second, my other class is truly picking my creative bug. I’m a little resentful that I haven’t been able to continue my own writing because of everything that is going on right now. But since I’m working on a screenplay for this class, then it is ultimately not so bad. Besides, I’m learning to write better, and I’m liking the challenging nature of this class.

Third, I’ve actually been able to do some “pleasure” reading. I have a gym bag full of books I got from the Research Library a few weeks back. I’m currently on my third book, and I really love being able to choose what I read.

Fourth, my wife and I have been able to spend more time together than we usually would during the academic year. Even though the difference isn’t all that significant, I still take what I can get.

Fifth, because it is summer after all…

-MTO


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